He Doesn’t Serve God !!

I'd like to tell you a story, about true love
It's very informative and has an interesting cast.
So pay close attention, it's sad but true,
And don't ever think this can't happen to you.
I met him during lunch break on a sunny day,
He sat next to me and smiled, as I was about to pray.
We talked on and on. He was such a gentleman.
I wished that this moment would never end.
Ah, but then it came to be the end of my lunch hour.
I tell you when he stood up, he looked just like a tower!
We met again and again. Our souls began to cling.
I pondered in my mind, "Is this the REAL thing?"
He doesn't smoke or drink, or gamble away his money.
He don't do drugs or things like that and he's nobody's "honey".
Let's face it, he's fine and he's really got a great "bod".
The only thing that's missing is he doesn't serve God.
I'll just give him a chance, he'll change in time.
I won't mind being "his", if he'd like to be "mine".
My friends tried to warn me. I didn't listen or care.
Little did I know my life would be one of despair.
The wedding was fine. The judge married us in the fall.
You see, I couldn't have a wedding in a Kingdom Hall
My dad, no, he didn't give me away.
With the pain in his heart, he didn't have much to say.
Mom, listen to me, please don't cry and whine.
Don't worry about us, we'll be just fine.
I've got a good man and he has a good job.
The only thing is, he doesn't serve God.



Everything is going fine, but recently at night.
When it's time for the meeting, we just fuss and fight.
He says, "Who's this God, breaking us apart
Don’t go tonight dear, please follow your heart.”
So I listen and stay, to keep peace at home.
But now oftentimes, I feel so all-alone.
I don't associate with the friends much at all,
To keep peace at home, I don't go to the Hall.
Service and Meetings, all that's history.
Today, I decorated my first Holiday Tree.
The holiday celebrations are now part of my life.
You see, I must obey my husband, for I am his wife.
The brothers would call. I wouldn't answer the door.
I don't read the magazines. Reading is such a bore.
Marrying out of the Truth, it really sets you "free".
"Free" from Jehovah's love that once was in me.
I just got the news! I'm having a "little one"!
I can hardly wait to tell my dear "Hon".
He was in a bad mood. He lost his job that day.
He told me as he hit me, "That's just one more bill to pay!"
Then he apologized, "I'm sorry, please forgive me Dear"
You see, I've heard those words more often than I'd like to hear.
I have two jobs now. I must support my household.
My husband says he'll find work, but now that's getting old.
I'm tired. I'm stressed. I'm feeling very strange.
My schedule at both jobs, I'll have to rearrange.
I should be very happy, the baby is due any day.
Things just have to get better, somehow, some way.
I 'm married to this man, for better or for worse.
The only problem is, he doesn't put Jehovah first.
The baby came today, she's so little and so light.
She's not crying or making noise, something's just not right.


"What could be wrong?" I thought aloud as I lay in bed.
In came the doctor looking sad, and then he shook his head.
"Mrs. Unbeliever," he said, "there's something I must confess."
You and the baby tested positive to the new HIV test.
I started crying. I couldn't believe the words the doctor said.
To know that in a very short time, my child and I'd be dead!
Listen to me! All of you! I'm telling you to your face!
To marry an Unbeliever, is a TOTAL DISGRACE,
To Jehovah, our loving father, who provides for his sheep.
That's why he sets the guidelines for us to hold and keep.
Wait on Jehovah. In his due time He'll set things straight.
Be patient, and He'll give you a Theocratic mate.
One who loves Jehovah and you know that he'll do right.
One who'll be there with you when it comes to "Meeting" night.
An unbeliever has nothing to offer - really nothing at all
But unhappiness, sadness, sorrow, and a very serious fall.
So be wise my Sisters, and please don't try to rush things.
Wait patiently on Jehovah, and accept the blessings he brings.
Don't look to worldly men as mates, at your job or at the Mall.
REMEMBER! Brothers that serve Jehovah are at the Kingdom Hall.

-Author Unknown-

THURSDAYS

I love Thursdays!! Maybe even more than SUndays..mm..no wait-i guess they're equal.It's amazing how midweek meetings are like an oasis after a long journey in the desert.Being in the world from Monday to Wednesday does take its toll-whether you're aware of it or not,you somehow have been 'contaminated' in one way or another.

I entered the KH today with a lot on my mind (me and my thinking sessions again..lol) but everything suddenly seemed to disappear the moment I entered
the KH! I couldn't help but smile.Seeing a lot still in their work uniforms, obviously tired from a day's work, probably with bigger problems than mine but
still wearing their wide smiles.Kids tired from all their school work still sitting quietly with their mums and dads waiting for the meetings to start, singing
along with the kingdom melodies.Then there's the deaf-bearing all the ridicule they get from their classmates and threats from teachers and happily conversing outside the Hall.Our 'poor' elders and MS faithfully giving their parts-you can really see how physically tired they all are but they still walk up that stage over and over again and give their best!(sometimes even losing their voices onstage out of pure fatigue:( Their effort sometimes makes me wish I was a guy, just so they could sit and listen without going on stage for once!

It just made me think:I've been sleeping(trying to) whole..ok mm..half of the day.Am not tired from any job, no projects, deadlines etc on my mind.No persecution or threats from anyone.No major parts to deliver, and here I am feeling like I'm carrying the worlds' problems!In fact my so-called 'problems' are probably mere concerns brought about my thinking too much-nothing compared to what others are facing."WAKE UP EMILY!WHAT ARE YOU FROWNING ABOUT?TRY AND MAKE YOURSELF USEFUL-PUT ON THAT SMILE AND FIND SOMEONE TO ENCOURAGE!!"

Thursdays are my time to put things in perspective, get the dose of encouragement I need to cope with the remaining days and realize what a wonderful spiritual paradise we have.^_^

The sweetest thing

I think I've already mentioned that despite how hmm...'hard' and unemotional i might seem, I actually do have a sweet part of me.Promise!You wanna know how sweet?Well, here are some things I've done for people-not necessarily guys ok?;)Most are things I've given people...(not every single thing, just the ones I consider the sweetest;)

>a watch, wrapped up with a note inside

>a notebook with a cute quote inside

>key chain with a name and text engraved

>polo,necktie,vest etc..lol

>a box of brownies with a card inside

>delivered ice cream to their door

>pair of earrings

>dress-grad gift

>sent electronic cards (lots)

>wrote little notes (I guess i express myself better in paper...)

Hmmmm....Can't really think of anything else right now.Don't worry, I'm gonna add to that list to include the corniest things you can imagine!lol.One thing's for sure "there is more happiness in giving then in receiving."The simple smile or thank you that you receive is worth more than money can buy!:) Giving stuff is kind of my way to say things that would be mm..too corny? uneasy to say.It somehow like engraving yourselves on peoples' minds.:)

On the other hand, I've promised myself to be more careful with my 'gift-giving' sprees(with the opposite sex i mean) .why?Let's put it this way: if you don't
have a 'right' to-better not."Right"-some kind of valid reason to give someone, good enough for you to accept the fact that it'll make them feel special ie. relationship stage.Why?It's too hard to explain(or maybe I prefer not to)lol.Just take it from me ok?Yep, "Action speaks louder than words".Only make sure you're saying the right things with your actions coz actions have some
consequences that words may not:D

I'ts complicated

Our issue for the night with my office mates was about the 'it's complicated' thing.(i duuno how we came to that-love must be in the air..lol) What exactly to people mean by that?Yes, there may be very many complications in a relationship but I'm talking about when they put it as their 'status'? There's single-no connections, 'in a relationship'-has commitment, 'engaged'-very serious relationship,going to get married and "married"-lifetime commitment. Where does the 'it's complicated"come in?Maybe they're not sure where they stand (in that case, why not put 'single' as a status!)I think sometimes it's all about not being able to say 'you're in a relationship' for whatever reasons-people would be against it, you don't want everyone's eyes on you etc-but also not wanting to be 'available'. Solution? Say it's complicated,this way people won't easily 'try' anything and you'd be somewhat honest-admitting you have something going on. But doesn't saying things are 'complicated' just give raise to more suspicion?Maybe some people simply want to make 'issues', give people reason to contact them, they probably enjoy the attention.In my opinion, if you have 'it's complicated' as a status-you're very indecisive (no offense).Anyway, I'm not Billy Gates to have all the social networking sites erase that status option am I?lol But I can promise you, I'll never ever have that as my status! If i do, you can lock me up if you like..:D

Fight for love?

It's common for people to say you have to fight for love.That if you really love someone you won't just let them go, you'll fight to have them stay.I think fighting for 'your' love makes more sense, doing everything you both can do to keep your love alive-still fighting.But as for the 'if you really love someone, you'd fight'?Nope.How about the song or is it quote "if you really love someone, you'd let them go and if they return, you'll know they're really yours".Makes more sense to me.If you truly love someone, you'd only want their happiness, even if it meant not being with you:( It's very selfish to 'fight' for someone who wants to leave. Think:would you be able to get over the fact that they wanted to leave?But how about letting someone 'slip out of your hands'?I think it depends.If you let them 'slip' because you feel they'd be happier without you,that's unselfish right?But who's to say they'd be happier without you??Them right? Or how about the famous 'i'm not good enough for him/her' line? Again, who says you're not good enough?!I think many have lost a good chance at love because of this 'low self-confidence' notion. True, they might be 'better', more mature, or whatever than you in some way, but that doesn't mean they need or even want someone of that caliber!Compatibility remember?So, please don't use that line anymore ok? ;) Never think someone's 'too good' for you unless THEY say so or somehow hint so.Why?You just might be walking away from someone who actually likes you and doesn't one bit think they're too good for you!-big loss:( I think many people over-estimate or 'idolize' people who in fact view themselves as 'normal', nothing special,It's others who label someone as 'too good'not that they think so much of themselves or anything.My point?It's not for you to say who's 'too good' for you;if they thought they were, it'd show (ie.they wouldn't like you in the first place). Conclusion:Don't fight for love, let go if you have to but make sure not to 'burn your own bridges'.xox

Childhood memories

Everybody has unforgettable childhood memories, it's nice to sometimes look back and reminisce those good times and laugh at some of the stupid things you did.I've been blessed with a wonderful childhood, full of adventure.I'm getting very forgetful lately, in fear that I might wake up one day with no memories of my past, I've decided to make a list of some things I did when I was a kid that I remember vividly.

>Our farm with no electricity.There were many trees, we had cows, goats and I think pigs( I'm talking about age 1-2 here).Then there was a rusty bus right in front of the house and a well on the right. Further down were banana trees and a stream.On the left I remember a guava tree that I used to climb.Inside the house we had I think two bedrooms, a kitchen, dining room and a bathroom.We all slept in the one room since the other one became my playroom (it had no roof yet)I remember playing alone then with my bro, probably because I was the only child during this time.What else do I recall??Snakes!! Papa always had to check the house when we returned from meetings with a torch to make sure it was 'safe'.Many times there was a snake in one of the rooms and we had to creep in and quickly enter our room and lock it.The snake was gone by morning. I think sometime in our stay at the farm, I ate a field mice roasted by one of our helpers-it was yummy like chicken:D. Then there was the long, long, dark scary road we had to pass before getting to the 'highway' (we were 20km away from the city)!

>Next, I remember our other house (where first bro was born). This was the time we were you could say 'rich'-Papa was a manager!. Dad was really fat (but fit) and our house had a rose garden and lots of mango trees in the backyard. We went to fine dining restaurants often (all company paid).This is also when i remember playing with my fafa in our lawn every time it rained!(my bro was too small to join us).Also had lots of Bethelites visit us often-my parents close friends.

>Then moved again to the city.I'm grade two or so by now.That's were my green and yellow uniform comes in.(soo green even my socks!lol).I was very timid, the smallest in the class, often picked on (not many memories here)....hmm..oh there was the sneaking out of the window to play during nap time..hahaha.(we never got caught;).and the climbing the mango tree to get to the neighbors house! Then the racing to the end of the street, playing hide and seek in empty lots, throwing baloons filled with water at each other.Making sure to get be clean and in doors by 5:00 (cartoons time).

>Then another move to a little bit farm area..I like this part;) I become the teachers' pet, 'smartest' in the class..hahaha.Walked to school every day (a 30 min walk-no transport) on a dusty road but with trees and nature all around.Always had snakes cross by in front of me!I never ever played or owned a barbie and didn't have many girl friends. My buddies were my bros and the neighbors kids (all boys), me being the only girl( I didn't think I was a girl though..lol) We used to play soccer with our home-made balls bare feet off course ( our yard was sooo big!!) Stealing mangoes from trees was a fav pastime too. Then there was going 'hunting'(still barefooted) in the tall grass outside our yard (looking for 'Blacky'-our pitch black cat who always wondered around).Only the 'big' ones were allowed ie.me, my bro and eldest neighbor(my age mate), the rest stayed at home playing 'kids' games.lol We got really far with our 'hunts' but never feared getting lost.:) It's also this time I got my first,no it was my second love letter!lol from?My age mate, bestfriend neighbor! I was a very late bloomer you see, never thought of 'boyfriends','crushes' even if I was around grade 6 or 7!Anyways, that destroyed our friendship-I mean how could he ask me to be his girlfriend??We were buddies ie. I was a boy.lol.This is one of my greatest regrets, not mending our friendship/relationship before we left for the Phils:(( If I could turn back time, this is what I'd change for sure!!


Well, so much for my time travel.At least I can safely say I had my full share of a happy childhood.Did you??.^_^

Sweet Vs. Corny

Here are some sweet/corny (depending on how you look at it) things people have done:

>"...I pulled out a dollar and wrote in big block letters “SMILE” and laminated it. I drove up to his job and placed it on his truck.."

>"...I drove over to his work and put Hershey kisses all over his car!.."

>"..He had cut out 21 hearts- 20 each said "5%" on one side and on the other, reasons why he loved me such as "your smile." The biggest heart hanging at the entrance to my room said "22%" (my favorite number) and "I love you for being you..."

>"...I wrote my absolute love of my life a really sweet poem all about the things we have done this year...and read it to her..."

>"...I pulled forth a dozen white roses with a single red rose in the middle of the bunch. Attached to the red rose I had note saying "Thank you so much for 'standing-out' in my life...."

Ok.Ok. Enough of that!Well, would you categorize those as sweet or corny?I really believe in "the cornier, the sweeter", my bro says "the cornier, the more sincere".Why? It takes a lot of guts, premeditation, planning, effort...to pull any of those 'surprises'.All the effort etc put into it could only spell one thing-LOVE.You surely wouldn't go that far for just anybody! It just shows how special you think they are.Yeah, it might sound corny, very corny but for the one on the receiving end-.."it was the sweetest thing anyone had done for me..", that's how all the above stories ended.Lesson?Some things only sound corny, but are really very sweet.Not that I'm an expert on the matter but looking back, I've actually done some things that only now have realized were actually sweet!lol.So, I do have a sweet, gentle side after all;)...*_*

I'd lie

Yep, I'm talking about talking about Taylor Swift's famous song.Have you really mm..let's say 'felt' the lyrics?It's a perfect 'falling for your friend' story!I find it 'funny' how far self-denial can get sometimes like the chorus goes:

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

I mean, cummon! How could you possibly know so much in so much detail about someone and deny you love them?? I think it's all about fear.People are scared to use the "L" word.I bet if you asked her 'if she liked him' she'd agree.There simply is a big difference when you use the "L" word, it comes with some kind of responsibility, not only to the one saying it but to the one it's being said to.Coming to think of it-I've never said 143 to anyone, only replying with "likewise" or "you too". I've been wondering why? My analysis so far says it's because LOVE is supposed to be something developed, not simply felt.I find it weird that people use the "I LOVE YOU" line to get into relationships, wouldn't it be wiser and more sincere if they said something like "I REALLY LIKE YOU AND WOULD LIKE TO KNOW YOU BETTER"? That way, you're not making any promises, you're not giving anyone any unrealistic expectations and you're not 'forcing' them to say 'yes' (it's hard to say 'no' when someone tells you they love you, easiest way out is to simply agree...) and you are being very honest.If things don't work out, they can't say "but you said you loved me....."(yeah you did but you didn't even know her/him that much yet!)-how would you answer that???

Sometimes though,like in the 'I'd lie' song-you know a person 'inside out' so yes, you could say you loved them but why the denial??Again Fear.Maybe fear of rejection?that the feeling isn't mutual?'destroying' your 'friendship'?loosing that person for good?Or not being able to deal with the consequences?..It's a lot easier and safer to keep everything to yourself than to risk the loosing the 'bond' you have.What do you think?Are those reasons good enough? I rest my case @_@

Kids

It's simply amazing how any child especially the 'terrible twos' or at least below five, can put a smile on probably anyone's face. Have you seen how adults, no matter how 'serious' they may seem would do almost everything to get a kid smile? You put on your best funny face, clap your hands, dance around-anything for that simple smile! It's as if children have some spell that could melt the hardest of hearts.Whoever gets them to accept their open arms or better yet gets that hard earned grin, walks away victorious. Like you've won some lotto or something!How is it that the presence of even one child brings out the best in everyone.Why??

Maybe it's because we're captivated by their innocence, contentment, their genuine,selfless ways. How they can cry this second and have a huge smile the next, how a simple balloon or candy is all they need to take the pain away, how they don't care about getting dirty and care-freely entertain themselves, the trust they have that you'll catch them when you throw them in the air,the way they don't have a hint of pride in them and can ask help for anything, the confidence they have in mommy/daddy to make everything better, how they forget any fights and reconcile in a heartbeat, the pleasure they get from the simplest of things.

I think we somehow wish we were more like that.That we could always be happy and satisfied, without worries, that we didn't take ourselves too seriously, that we trusted people more, that we were humble enough to admit our mistakes, that we never had to end any friendships-that we could see the world in their eyes.^_^

No wonder Jesus said we should be more like them to 'enter God's Kingdom'-children are the perfect examples of how we're supposed to be; how to live and enjoy life.Me having second thoughts on having kids???lol

Red Alert

There are lots of lists of 'signs you're in love' around.Since I've got a blog, I thought why not make my own version. Signals that would obviously apply to myself and probably everyone else.So here it goes:

* You save all (most) of their messages (text, ym etc)-save them for a rainy day when you'll need a smile ^_^

* You find yourself smiling for no visible reason -actually you're thinking 'happy thoughts' ie him/her.

* People say you're 'blooming'(girls only) even if you didn't do anything special to yourself

* You begin to like slow (corny) songs despite being a rock, upbeat fan

* A lot of things, places, lines suddenly make you think of him/her

* You change from being very forgetful to having a good memory (remember a lot of tiny details about him/her)

* He/she is on your mind 24/7 (not that you're really thinking of them but they're somewhere on the back of your mind)

* You're interested in his/her opinion

* You can't wait to talk to him/her like they somehow 'complete your day'

* You were smiling all the while reading this coz there's someone on your mind ;)

Well??Did you hear the sirens go "red alert, red alert-you're in love"? CONGRATULATIONS!!xox

Practice makes perfect?

Ok, I must admit I started running out of ideas for this blog so as usual, i turned to my bro for some suggestions.This is his idea.(just the title;). I used to get this a lot in High school and College:

Them:"Why don't you have a bf?"
Me:"I'm not ready yet"
Them:"But your already ___!Anyway, it's just practice"
Me:"I believe bf/gf relationships are serious-for marriage"
Them:"what??No way..how will you know who's best for you if you don't try different personalities?" ie:practice makes perfect

The conversation always ended up in a debate of 'me against the world'.What's the problem here??Many think the more you enter (& exit) relationships, the more you learn about yourself and about what you want/need in a partner.Is that good practice for a long lasting relationship?If anything, they're preparing for divorce; viewing relationships as 'casual', 'no big deal','short-term'-PRACTICE!

Another loop hole in this 'practice makes perfect' reasoning is the what I've come to call "OUCH" factor.

Scenario: Boy is very serious about this girl, thinks she might be 'the one', does everything to get her interested (lots of effort) and finally-she agrees!!Girl however doesn't really like/love this guy but since he's persistent,she thinks "why not? it'd be good practice after all".End?Boy gets a big, big heartbreak that might have an effect on his very life.Girl walks away-no big deal
*The End*

How about if you were the boy?Just being practiced on?O-U-C-H.
Lesson:Practice doesn't make perfect!You can learn from your experiences, the difference being you don't do it intentionally(entering a relationship,knowing you'll 'break-up' for sure), you do your best but things simply don't work out so you walk away with experience not practice.Relationships are definitely not a time for trial and error. But how are you supposed to know "who's best for you if you don't try different personalities"? It's called maturity.As you get to know yourself, you'll realize what you need and who would be compatible.Yes, age does matter(not age-difference between partners but the age you enter a relationship). So if you want to prevent heartbreak, don't 'practice', simply wait 'til you're mature enough then learn from your experiences.^_^

'To do' list

In this chaotic world, having your life planned out really helps.I'm talking about the 'real life' here-planning in this world is futile:D Anyway, here is a list of some things I'd love to do, why I might not be able to them in this world but why i'll definitely check them one-by-one someday.

>Travel around the world
now:I'm not a billionaire-even if i was, there so many better things to do.
then:no more money!hmm...maybe i'll ride a dolphine?:)


>Settle down in New Zealand or Switzerland
now:see num 1
then:it won't matter where-the whole world will be as beautiful as those countries!

>Have kids
now:mmm...very hard times to have kids..but,you never know
then:no more hard times,not to mention birth pains!

>Put up a nursery or kindergarten
now:Not qualified
then:qualified??how about perfect? :)

>Experience snow
now:Phils is a tropical country!
then:travel around the world remember?

>Design and build my own house
now: num 1 again, besides who wants a beautiful house in this world right??
then:beautiful house+beautiful world=makes sense;)

>Learn how to drive a car/motor
now:what will I drive?no car/motor!lol
then:hmm...I'll invent my own model (Eco-friendly)lol

>Ride a really high roller coaster!
now:num 1 again+fear factor
then:bye2x fear :P

>Be the perfect wife.mother
now:nobody's perfect
then:100/100

>See the 'blue planet' from outer space-must be breathtaking
now:i'm not an astronaut
then:astronaut/scientist/mathematician/.../.../.../..../

>Be a linguist!
now:no time and no brains ;)
then:endless time and i'm a genius remember?:D

I could go on and on but I've got work to do;) So? Have you guys made your 'to-do' list yet?You better or you might end up 'lost', too many things to do!Besides, it's not going to be a long wait-you'll get to check that long list really soon ^_^

Compatibility

I had another 'Talk Show' with one of my bros over the weekend, I made him explain the black-listed thing and ended up talking about compatibility.(Personality wise-spiritual factors etc are a given off course)What exactly does it involve? If you enjoy the same music and get along perfectly, would you say you're compatible? Or if you had similar family backgrounds?Or perhaps look good together physically? I don't think so,I think it means much more and depends on each ones personality. No matter how much you like/love someone, doesn't make you compatible. In fact simply basing everything on love is very foolish.You sometimes have to accept the fact that you wouldn't make a good couple!No matter how much you think you love the person, if you look real close (take off the blindfold of love) -you'll see just how incompatible you really are."love covers a multitude of sins"? These are not sins-this is something you can't change-the personality you'll live with for the rest of your life!

According to my bro, there is a certain kind of personality that you're compatible with.Not totally though, just some traits that become a 'must-have' to fit your personality and for you to be compatible.In my case, he says a 'behaved', quiet, smart guy.(He forgot humor,you just have to know how to make me laugh!)"Why?" I asked. Well, because I'm loud, not so high IQ (he actually called be dumb!hmph), outgoing and mm...kinda naughty?.Someone to somewhat neutralize/tame me I guess..Coming to think of it, I can't imagine myself having to 'compete' with a guy verbally!! I mean, I'm the girl right?So I'm supposed to be talkative.lol. Or maybe sharing my cosmetics with him!("can you pass me the powder hun?"-oh no!) Or someone whose more emotional than me?? (I'm really not that emotional)

"Opposites attract"? I think they do, just not in every single thing and to the extreme degree.There simply has to be some 'meeting in between'.Then there's the gender role issue. The guy always should be the head, so the girl should be able to respect him.The girl should always be somehow dependent on him (especially emotionally), be able to tell him things without fearing he'd 'break-down'.The girl is always the "damsel in distress:; guy always the "knight in shining armor".Those roles just can't be reversed.(Guy the 'lad in distress'; girl the "princess in shining armor"??lol just sooo wrong!!)

Conclusion?Make sure he can be your "knight in shining armor" before you fall? And off course, 'bros know best' so when in doubt, make an appointment with the 'love doctors'.lol ^_^

Rain

I love rain!Not just because we need it for survival but the simplicity of it is just wonderful.Have you ever tried looking at the rain (trying to see where it comes from)?It's indescribable! The drops appear to fall from above but you can't really see where.The way the drops look under a street light, the ripples they make when they hit a puddle of water, the way drops look like crystals on plants' leaves and the tingling feeling when they touch your skin.Everything just makes my day. People usually relate rain to sadness or gloominess but I dunno- I just go 'crazy'(in a good way) when it rains.It's the easiest way to get me to smile and instantly transform my mood (into ecstatic) .If there are 'lunatics', I might be a 'rainatic'?(ok, I'm making up words again..:)Walking in the rain has always been my 'thing', maybe because I used to play in the rain with my dad when I was a kid-I still do-sometimes.I wish I could walk in the rain all the time, without an umbrella!I used to until I got all kinds of lung diseases, then I was forced to use an umbrella:( So much for my reckless enjoyment.Then there's the let's say 'romantic' part of walking in the rain don't you think?I do..memories....*_* .And not to mention that scent you get after a good fall of rain-smells like a mix of heaven (rain) and earth (soil). Rain is unstoppable, like JH's promises, refreshing like the meetings-totally amazing like all of His creation. So when it rains, don't wonder if you catch me trying to get myself wet somehow (even with an umbrella)or staring up into the sky-it's simply one of my many 'happy drugs' ^_^

Morning Walks

I've been trying to find some fitness activity to engage in lately, my lifestyle is very unhealthy!After thinking about gyms, dance lessons, jogging etc, I thought about a simple solution-walking.For a couple of days now, I've been walking home(it's around 30min walk) and I'm loving it! Nothing beats the fresh cool morning air, it's sometimes so chilly I have to hug myself (I always forget my jacket).Everyone hurrying to work or school not knowing what the day will bring, the market bustling with activity, merchants setting their stalls up hoping for a productive day,jeepneys speeding through the roads like it were some kind of race-everything just so intriguing to watch!What I love about my walk is somehow, it's as if I'm walking in the suns direction (literally)-the nearer I get home, the brighter and warmer it gets.Then my favorite part of all, when I'm halfway home, I can see the sun in mid-sky!!A perfect circle, yellow with different hues surrounding it and I can look straight at it, even without squinting! Sorry to sound ignorant but when else do you get to look straight at the sun?!? I also get to pick flowers on the way-I just can't resist! (owners are asleep so I can't ask permission:D) and the flowers go to the one who opens the gate (ie. mama).Not to mention it's my daily dose of 'alone' time-very conducive for thinking.If a lots on my mind, I just walk slower:)

I do wish I had a better scenery instead of dirty, old, ugly buildings, cars and frowning faces so I make my own scenery. Using my imagination (the power of sleepless nights) I transform everything and make my walk a walk in paradise! The roads become green pastures, buildings-beautiful houses, frowns turn upside down into wide smiles and the cars??Animals!!Reminds me of the song "See yourself when all is new"-very inspiring. No wonder people were glancing at me, I must have been smiling all the way home^_^

I'm thinking of trying different routes to make my walks more interesting.I hope I can find my way home if I experiment, anyway since it's early it's safe to get lost (I'm a genius with direction:)If you haven't tried a morning walk, you're missing half of your life.So try it sometime,just remember to change your scenery.%_%

Ma Bros

I'm taking a break from all that lovey, dovey stuff-it's scaring me how frequent my love posts have become!!So, this post goes out to my two bros (sorry to get cheezy bros xox).What about them?Well, they're my num 1 critics, num 1 outlet, num 1 teasers on everything.Believe it or not I mean everything-from what shoes to wear, to which blouse matches, to how much weight I've gained and off course to which guys I like;)They are my 'tap' into the male mind..lol Outlet?yeah-poor guys have to listen(at least pretend) to my endless heart issues,when they can't take it (ie.I'm 'crazy in love' or 'heart-broken' and just go on and on...) they end up falling asleep on me!hmph.:D I'd really love to return the favor but unfortunately can't relate to their usual topic (DOTA), I try to listen but just don't get it!lol..Result?I talk about whatever's on my mind, they 'listen' while talking to each other about their latest items, skills (terms I've overheard)-very good communication don't you think!?:)If they're in the mood though, they can be very good listeners, and brutally honest.In fact, you two get a large chunk of blame for my past 'experiences', I know I was naive but you guys really made things worse.Ok, enough blaming, this is supposed to be a cheezy post;) What else?hmm..they know how to make me smile when I'm mad(i do get angry sometimes you know) and they are very..let's say-respectful?(good boys who listen to their ate.lol)And they can be so critical, they have a 'nickname'(not a nice one) for all the guys I've ever liked! They even have some 'black-listed'-guys they'd never accept as their brother in laws,wouldn't attend our wedding and would deny me as their sister if I married them.harsh? nope, i prefer to assume they love me too much and want the best for me, and those guys just don't qualify and don't deserve me.I'm I right bros?(hahaha..cheezy!!)Anyways, enough corniness for now.In a nutshell-these two are the 'inside peek' on what's going on in my brain, I sometimes think they know me more than I know myself! Wanna inside peek?Would only take a game of DOTA(your treat)-yeah, that cheap!lol LUBU Please,please don't blackmail me for this, I did warn you I'd do it :D

Who owns the game??

I was having a midnight talk (ended up in a debate) with my 'lil bro bout love stuff(we both couldn't sleep).Yeah, he's all grown up and can even hold an argument with me now!lol Our topic?Who owns(has more control) of the game (courtship etc)?Male or Female?
My answer:Male.why?He's the guy, he makes all the moves.He can use his charm, sweetness to get any girl he likes.If the girl doesn't like him at first, it'll just take a little gentleman gestures and she'll eventually fall.Or he could simply just be her friend, always there (in the end, girls for their 'friends').Another thing-girls aren't so particular about looks!ie-if you're not Brad Pitt you could still get Angelina to fall for you!Girls just fall faster and easier than guys.
His rebuttal:Guys can do nothing if the girl is firm and says NO!Guys don't act(no matter how interested they may be) if they don't get some signal from the girl, they aren't making any moves."You don't know how much power girls have" he says.If you try the 'friends' approach-sometimes, you might only ruin your friendship.

Ok, now at this point, i'm somewhat agreeing with him..lol


His answer: FEMALES!why?They can make any guy they like notice them, give them 'signals' and he'll come running after them.In short, guys think they're making the first move but the reality is they got some 'signs' from the girl.The bottom line-girls take the 'lead'.

My rebuttal:True, guyz can't resist taking girls 'signals'.Question is how sincere are they?They can easily 'go with the flow' (gives them an ego boast).If the guy isn't 'in' to you-you really can't change that.The fact is-the guy must at least initially have some interest in you!Good if he 'falls' for real but what if he doesn't? another OUCH!

The verdict?it's a tie-neither really OWN the game.There is some mutuality involved somewhere down the line.Well, well, i should have known better than to 'take on' a certified "Best Debater"!;) Who would've guessed my baby bro wound be a new source of ideas for my posts...