Undercover

So called 'secret relationships' seem to be popping out all around me these days. Maybe He doesn't think SHE will be accepted in the family, maybe SHE has strict parents and is dating behind their backs-maybe it's a little bit of both. Personally, I just don't get why anyone would agree to go 'undercover'. LOVE?? I absolutely don't think LOVE is a good enough reason!

Think about it. If HE loved you, shouldn't he be proud of YOU?So proud he'd show you off to His parents, friends and confidently say :this is....my Girlfriend, the girl I love or whatever line he has? In my book DEFINITELY YES!! There is no way I'd really love someone who wants to hide me. That is outright shameful!

But then, there may be situations when you think the 'secrecy' is for your own good. Maybe it's because of some cultural or religious boundaries that you are stepping over. Maybe he really wishes he could show you off but he can't. In that case, maybe the hiding has a purpose. Still, the fact is all these MAYBE's are very seldom.

Well, I guess I don't expect couples to be as showy as I'd be if I was in their place but I surely don't get why they hide it. Why they act like 'just friends' in public. I mean, how can you treat someone special so normally?

It's really not wrong but I find it deceptive. Letting everyone know is a protection in so many ways. On top of that it makes you feel loved, secure...etc..

I can't control anyone's life but my own. I hereby promise I'd never ever hide anyone I love. I will(note the future tense used..LOL) Facebook it, twitter it, myspace it, blog it and whatever networks are developed by then:) Nobody will have to ask me who I'm 'with'. It'll be so obvious, even the dumbest person will understand. Just being Cornie? Nope-Just being ME^_^

Oh, and I'll expect the same to be done for me obviously...:D

The Terminal

I've been visiting the terminal a lot lately. I can't help but get this 'mixed emotions' feeling whenever I go there. It seems the terminal can be one of those places where you want to cry and laugh at the same time. Where beginnings or endings start. Simply a place where everyone seems to be busy in their own thoughts.

You're there to fetch someone you haven't seen for a long time.You anxiously look at every bus that passes by. All you can think about is 'i wonder how he/she's changed'...you can't wait to be reunited. Finally the bus arrives and you give each other a warm embrace.

Then when it's time to part, you take them to the same place that you were so excited to go to. Only now, you regret having to go there. You know you have to part ways. The problem is the time you spent is too little. If you could, you'd ride the bus with them at the instant. If you could, you'd wish it'd rain or something would happen so you don't have to part ways. But this is how things have to be. The terminal now becomes a place you really hate.

I guess you have to get used to terminals. They seem to bring both joy and sadness at the same time. They are full of love and friendships. The teary eyes, silent conversations and warm embraces of sweet reunions or sad goodbye's make you stop and think. Think about who you will have to take to the terminal next. Or how it would feel to be leaving all you ever knew.

My lesson from the terminal is simple: Treasure every second you have with all the people you love. Change is inevitable and you never know how drastic your relationships may change, who you may end up missing and how much you may regret everything you didn't do when you had the chance.

Never say Never

One of my friends(more like idol)is no longer a servant of Jehovah. When I heard the news, I simply couldn't believe it. All I could think of was "how come?".."how could he?"......"he was so strong...." and so on...

Then I remembered. I remembered the lesson that I swore I'd never forget.

NEVER SAY NEVER.

Many years ago, I 'looked down' on those who had privileges and ended up rebelling. I simply could not understand why and how such a thing could happen. I would tell myself "that would never happen to me". I would never end up like 'them'. I would never commit a grave sin like 'them'. Yes, this over self-confidence was part of me.

Then with an experience I'd rather not go into details with,it nearly happened to me.It was then that I learned my ultimate lesson. That it could happen to anyone of us. NO matter how 'strong' no matter how mature or well-spoken of you may think you are, you may very easily find yourself in a situation that you'd never imagined yourself being in. It takes one false move, one wrong decision and you'll have made the biggest mistake in your life.

So instead of thinking about all the 'Why's and 'how could he's". I empathized. I understood. I understood how he had fallen pray to Satan's trap. How he surely regrets his actions and how this discipline may bring him back to his senses.

And it taught me my lesson all over again. Never to feel too 'safe' and 'mature' that you feel invincible. To always keep yourself away from temptations and to continue building yourself up with 'fire resistant material'.